Monday 7 June 2010

Athough....

....you know what?

Things are never going to be perfect.

Sometimes I feel like everything in my life has to be neat, ordered, in its box. And I get anxious because it's just not like that (when is it ever?!!)

The truth is, I am quite a scatty, disorganised person. I'm impusive, happy-go-lucky, and I like living life to the full.

So.....sure there is stuff that needs to be improved. Stuff I can do right now which will make me feel good & less anxious. Especially stuff to do with money.

But all I can do is that, really. Still live life to the full....just maybe with more a degree of caution? More....sensible. I need to drink less, think of my health. I need to eat more healthily.....it may effect my future health. I'm nearly 31! I guess we've all got to grow up sometime.....

So! Here it begins.

The future and minor things like that

So!
I think it's time to do a little assessment of stuff.
I did this way back in 2002 when I felt a bit all over the place. I feel a bit like that now. I can't shake the vague sense of anxiety which is always lurking in the background....and I don't know why.
A lot of it is to do with money, sure. It's the source of most stress round here!
I just need to figure some stuff out..........I guess here is the place to do it.

Stuff that's good
1) Happy, healthy, bright children (touch wood)
2) Strong marriage - we feel like a team
3) Lovely big house - may not be ours but all the space is FAB. Long term let!
4) Near my ma & pa
5) Mike in secure, permanent, well-paid job
6) Now I'm working 2 days a week, I can pay for my outgoings! And have some left over....it's also good to be using my brain once again....
7) Fab social life - loads of lovely friends here & scattered all over the country!

Stuff I think needs improving/doing
1) Need to shift about half a stone
2) Need to do more exercise
3) Need to eat more healthily - eating waaaay too much bad stuff at the mo - need to have 5 a day fruit & veg! Less sat. fat!
4) Money - as always. We're getting there. But our finances still feel like such a mess! I need to keep track of my spending more & not be so crazy.
5) Children's sweet treats should only really be at the weekend
6) Probably need to drink less booze at the weekend - binge drinking is my speciality

Desires for future
1) Find solid, dependable childcare I'm happy with for September for both children, 2 days a week
2) Be a healthy eater who enjoys treats OCCASIONALLY!!!
3) Go on a family holiday once a year - pref. abroad
4) Remember friends and families birthdays and send cards!

Long term
1) Buy house
2) Travel the world
3) Be rich (haha)
4) Go to Ibiza (!!!)

Action plan
1) Eat 5 a day - fruit & veg - starting after Butlins
2) After Butlins start weightwatchers to lose half a stone
3) Find a class to do once a week - Step?
4) Start childcare search - this week
5) Can we afford holiday this year or next? Work it out...

Money
1) Every month, transfer our disposable income into joint account.
2) Check account every other day.
3) NO MORE CHARGES!
4) Could I do some tutoring or something to help clear my debts? Capital One = £800
5) Check Topshop all clear.....
6) Set a weekly budget for me

Ooh! I feel so much better having done that.